I’m such a fucking failure. Everyone always complains about getting an 80% on a test and then there’s me who gets a 50%. I hate how I procrastinate, last year I never would but now I do it all the time. I hate how I can never understand/listen to what’s being taught in class. They never teach you the main idea of what we’re learning, they teach you everything around it but the basic point, which is why I never ace any of my tests/quizzes. I’ll get over 95% on assignments and projects but when it comes to the tests I always fail them. It’s ridiculous how our grades are mostly determined by memory. No one can just sit down, read 7 booklets and have it all memorized word by word. I really want to do great in all of my courses, I really do.  I’ve been trying to all year but nothing ever works. I’m only do good in one course, psychology. The only reason why I’m doing very well in that course is because the things you learn about make sense and are relevant. You can take what you learn from that class and use it in your everyday life unlike history where you learn about wars and laws that happened years ago. I think the thing that bothers me most about getting such shitty grades is the fact that the grades that I have now affect my future of getting into certain universities and occupation fields. I’m supposed to be getting over 85% or 90% in all of my courses and so far that’s not happening. I give up on myself

I really just want to go to someone’s or even my house, play video games, watch any kind of movie, eat food, cuddle and makeout all night WHY IS THIS SO HARD TO ASK

You make me so nervous that my body starts to shake uncontrollably
I’m scared to say most things because I’m scared of your reactions
I’m scared that I’m going to embarrass myself all the time and you’ll judge me afterwards
I really like you and I’m scared you’re going to hurt me

stop hinting that you want me to lose weight. I already know, you don’t need to hint it to me because it’s pretty damn obvious

I don’t know if I could be with you. All we ever do is flirt, nothing else. I need someone who can keep a conversation going, not say things that I can’t really respond to. Plus every time you say something cute, the first thing that comes to mind is “Gee I wonder how many other girls you’ve said that to”

whats wrong with me. why cant i do anything right. why am i so scared to get close to anyone again. why do people constantly screw me over. whys it so hard to get over things that are so meaningless and stupid.

I went to the atl concert and honestly the moment they came out my eyes started to water then by the time they started playing their second song I started crying so hard. I was shaking uncontrollably that I could hardly stand and I couldn’t breath. When alex started playing therapy I instantly started bawling my eyes out. I honestly couldn’t help it and couldn’t stop. A guy from my school was two rows in front of me and kept staring at me for the longest time. He looked away then once I looked over again, there he was watching me bawling my eyes out. 5 minutes later his brother turns around and watches me for a while then turns back because I was looking back. Either they felt sorry for me or they thought I was a freak for crying at a concert but I honestly couldn’t control it! I’m still shaking, I wish I could have been inches away from them instead of near the back. Someone hold me

when you’ve been alone for as long as I have, you start to think about every little detail about yourself that you think is the reason why no body wants you. Like is it the way I look? The way I act? The things I say? What did I do wrong? The more this happens, the more I point out annoying details about myself which makes me hate myself more and more every second. 

Gee if I hardly know you and you see me not smiling for one day then ask me what’s wrong, I’m obviously not going to tell you and say that im tired/fine. don’t bitch stare and talk shit about me to other people because i said that im just tired/fine, that only makes things worse

I’m an idiot. I’d be presented with a perfect opportunity but then I take too long to go for it so it ends up disappearing when I am ready to take it.
Its too late
I’m too late
I’m sorry 

Guys, stop trying to get with girls just to get your dick sucked. find a girl you actually like, get the girl and THEN you may get your dick sucked. don’t be going around finding a pretty cute girl just to get your dick sucked and play with her heart. The amount of times I’ve watched girls go for guys because of the fact that they’ve told them sweet things and said they’ve liked them is ridiculous. It actually happens way too many times than it should and the girl always gets hurt in the end. Girls are fragile things because they look at things a whole lot differently than you do. Plus you’re giving yourself a bad reputation and once you find a chick that you actually really like and she finds out about your past of you being a man whore/player, she’s going to be less attracted to you, say no to you or won’t want to give you a chance. tbh I find that guys who say they’ve never had their dick sucked before attractive

I feel like all of my friends secretly hate me but they don’t want to be rude and mean so they just put up with me. I’m always constantly thinking that they’re talking behind my back saying shitty things about me and talk about how annoying I am

whenever I’m upset and try to get my mind off something, I play the same fantasies in my head over and over of what I wish would happen but then I realize that none of it would ever happen then I get even more upset lol

So I found out that she took a picture of me without makeup, told some guy how ugly I was and showed him a picture of me without it. He said that I looked fucking scary. great.

my friends don’t understand what jokingly hitting each other is compared to actually abusing each other. If I actually end up with a mark on my skin and it is there for an hour, then that should tell you that you weren’t jokingly doing it. I don’t mind if my you playfully hit me, I only care when you hit me your absolute hardest and when I’m already upset cause that’s just going to make things worse for me and even more upset